A Month Long Catch Up

I am writing this at 03:25am.
 I haven't used this since November, which shows you either that I've been ok, or I haven't had the time to come online. I think it is time I let everyone have a catch up...
 My life has been up and down, the ups have been fantastic and the downs have been severe; the downs have included falling out with my best friend because of her boyfriend flirting with me behind her back, my sister calling the police on me over an argument we had in the road, and my fathers illness worrying me to the point of tears and fear.
 I suppose I should talk about some of the happier things first because they seem to stick out among the doom and gloom; I have managed to get a job in my local pub, I'm starting to become closer to my old friends again and we're enjoying each others company a bit better, my mother is now getting out of the house once a week to go and see her mother, and my grandad is finally getting better.
 These things have made the past month great, and obviously there are a few other great things mixed in there but I'm getting too tired to write everything down, but unfortunately it is time to get to the bad side; I am often seeing, feeling and hearing things again, some of it is part of my overactive imagination, the rest seems too real, my sister has been making life a trouble again for us all, my best friend has forgiven her flirtacious boyfriend for flirting with me behind her back but has shoved me aside and claims to everyone she is much happier without me, my father took a bad turn which had me scared for his life, my sister called the police on me over an argument which started over who was sitting where in the car, and my self esteem has gone down again where I am now feeling horrible about my own physical appearance and I have tried to stop eating meals apart from my tea again.
 I know it seems like I whine a lot on here, but these are just the things which creep up on me unexpected and unawares. Luckily I haven't done anything drastic in a while, but instead I am finding other ways to cope with my negative emotions.
 I'm feeling tired, but I hope to come on here again sometime soon and maybe keep everyone more up to date with my life...
I have finished writing this at 03:36am.
 Thank you for reading,
 Kirstie